My pregnancy hormones are really affecting nursing. Although I said I would continue nursing down for nap and bed, sometimes I just can't do it. Emotionally and physically it is too high of a demand on me. I do not want to wean, because Daniel doesn't seem ready. I actually feel better able to handle it during the day when I can distract myself a bit. When its bedtime it grates on my nerves all the more.
The problem is, sometimes I can do it, sometimes I can't. I wonder if I am confusing Daniel. I don't want him to think he's done something wrong to not get to nurse at every sleep time. I'm wondering if I should just stop nursing at bedtimes all together? I am so torn about this. Because when I can do it, it is enjoyable for both of us. He doesn't fall asleep on the breast anymore. If he does nurse before sleep, its for 5 minutes or so and then he gets the binkie and falls asleep. I just feel horrible allowing it sometimes, but not other times and worry SO much that I'm causing him confusion.