In addition to having a rough time BF my baby (she's a preemie, so we have our own set of challenges!) I think I am suffering from Postnatal depression. At first I put it down to baby-blues, but she is 5 weeks old now, and I don't feel any better.
She came early, and fast, was in the NICU for a few weeks (when we barely got a chance to hold her), and now that I have her home I don't even feel like she is my baby. I have not yet felt happy that I am a mother (in fact, I don't think I have felt happy since she was born)....and when things get really bad I have a melt-down (hysterical crying, and a feeling of complete helplessness, and that nothing will ever feel better again), and I just don't want to look after her. My husband has been stepping in and taking care of her on those days as I just can't cope.
I know that I need to get some help, but I don't know where to turn. I'm from another country, and don't know how things work here. Do I see my OB/GYN, or do I have to go to another doctor? I feel terrified of going to a doctor that I don't know. I have my 6 week appointment next week, but feel like I need help sooner than that.