so it's not really a problem - well depends on how you look at it I guess.
So last night I fed my LO around 11 or so, and she woke up around 3 ish - I fed her and she was asleep.
So I swaddle her and try to put her in her crib - she's asleep and comfy. LO is 5 wks old and hasn't slept 1 night in her crib since she's been home. She's taken a few naps in there - but never the night.
I go back to my bed (I've been sleeping in the spare room- so that we don't wake husband since he's working and I'm still on leave). So I last maybe 5 minutes in bed listening to the monitor.
I give up and go get her OUT of her crib and bring her sleeping/swaddled little form back to my bed. And she promptly starts crying because she's been sleeping with a nipple in her mouth for the past week or longer. Had I left her in her crib she'd have been fine - but I couldn't leave her there. I am so much in love with my baby girl, I couldnt' sleep without her. Am I pathetic? so even though my nipples are sore (I may have thrush - the LC has me using a home recipe for the all purpose nipple ointment - and it's helping with the pain at least) - I let her suckle and we slept for another few hours.
I so don't want to go back to work I could live with leaving her for a couple of hours (part time) - but I'll have to leave her for 10 hours per day or more (I have a 45 min commute 2 x a day - so 1.5 hrs just driving - plus 8 hrs or more) I could just cry.
As a result I haven't been focusing on pumping and freezing yet - I know I need to. How long do you think I should give myself to do this? I have 2.5 wks before I go back. I hope I have enough time to start building up a supply.
Man. I am going to be so depressed when I start focusing on the pump/freeze project
I am a computer consultant for crying out loud - I should be able to find a part time job. oy. oy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY heart is breaking..