Well, hello everyone. My name is Stefanie and I've been lurking for a few days now. I'll tell you my story but it seems to be very similar to some other's here. I started out fully intending to breastfeed my child. I was very sick myself during childhood and some during adulthood so I wanted to give my baby what little bit of an immune system that I have to offer. I had a rough pregnancy (preterm labor and lots of brethine shots) and an even harder delivery. To make a long story short I had a large baby girl (9 lbs) giving me a 4th degree tear and lots of wonderful blood loss. I almost needed an infusion. Initially, I was not even able to hold my daughter. I did for a few minutes in the delivery room but had to give her back to my husband because I was so weak. Finally around 9 or so that night I was a little better and we started nursing. She did really well and we both seemed to take to breastfeeding like pros. I was ecstatic. I thought for sure that this meant everything would go beautifully. It did until the second night in the hospital. She wanted to nurse non stop and I'd been up over 48 hours with no sleep. We kept her in the room the first night. She did do well though. I was at my wit's end. I talked to the nurse about what the options were. She never informed me that all newborns wanted to nurse constantly. She did tell me it would get better when my milk came in. I decided to let her take my daughter to the nursery for a few hours and then bring her back when it was time to nurse again. That nurse totally betrayed my trust. She gave my daughter a bottle that morning in the nursery at 6 am when she should have brought her to my room for a feeding. I know I was tired and weak but I wanted to nurse my child . At first I was like whatever but little did I realize what effect this one bottle had on my child until her next feeding times. Once she saw how easy it was to get that 2 oz bottle she didn't want to feed at my breast. Who would think that one bottle could do that. I tried and tried but I gave in because I was so tired. I didn't give up on breastfeeding though. I would try it at least every other time. I had plenty of milk when it came in but for some reason my daughter got used to the bottle. We are now working on exclusively bfing again at 2 1/2 months old. I now only work part time as opposed to full time. I work 4 hours a day at a place that's only a minute away from my house. I'm really just looking for support and advice. My main problem I believe is that when she's really hungry she won't latch on to the boob for anything. My milk is coming back but I know I need more to exclusively breastfeed.
I want to rent a hospital grade pump. Which one do you girls reccomend? Can any of you give me a ballpark estimate of how much it will cost per month? Hopefully, I can afford it. I am planning on calling one of LLL leaders in my area. I want to make sure that lo is indeed latching on correctly and get more tips. I asked for a lactation consultant in the hospital and they told me I could only have one if there were noticeable problems that the nurse couldn't fix. Well, we didn't have problems until the day we went home. My milk came in a day and a half after that but the damage was already done.
Pleae help me!!! I want to do this with all my heart and I am trying so hard. It's time to do something more though. I want to give my daughter what's best for her.