I posted a week or so ago about wanting to cut down on nursing/wean my 2 year old. Its going okay sometimes, but not other times. I also go back and forth on the whole idea. Somtimes nursing drives me crazy and makes me feel like I resent my LO. Other times I enjoy the cuddling aspect of it. Sometimes I think about CLW, but I really don't think its a good idea for me if I feel anger over her nursing. I agree with the concept, and at this point, feel like I am only continuing to nurse for her, not for me. Funny how everyone assumes that nursing past a certain age is just for the mom.
What I started doing after my last post was that I am trying to only allow nursing in the morning when my LO wakes, then some point after lunch (around nap time if she gets a nap) and then before bedtime. I don't offer it- its just if she asks around that time, I let her. If she doesn't ask, I wouldn't let her (she has yet to not ask). She also asks at other times during the day when I do not let her. I tell her that she can nurse next at the next time (I say after lunch, or before bed...whatever is coming next).
She sleeps all night most nights nowdays (finally) but the nights she has a waking, my DH tries to put her back to sleep. It doesn't work. She can scream and cry for hours. We do NOT agree with CIO. My DH stays with her. We have yet to see what would happen if he just stayed with her beyond an hour or two of screaming, because he has to work the next day. At that point, she nurses, and immediately goes back to sleep.
Sometimes when I am out, like yesterday, she unzipped my vest and grabbed my shirt where my breast is. right in front of my friend, who is not nursing. It was awkward...
I am thinking that if I could get her down to just the 3 nursings for a few weeks, then try cutting out another, etc.
I guess I need to know if this sounds normal, and any advice on how to keep cutting out nursing, as the ones I have left are the hardest ones. I would love to get one of the LLL books, but I can't right now, and don't have a local group, nor does my local library have anything.
I just don't like how nursing makes me feel, and the way she asks sometimes makes me feel wierd too. I just want to enjoy my LO without worrying about this anymore. Any thoughts?