I cannot continue. I just can't. I have nursed my aby to sleep since birth. She is now almost two (on Mar 30) and for some reason, having her on my breast just feels horrible and makes me feel angry, enraged, trapped, tense.. etc... It is horrible. I dread every nap and bedtime and of coruse the (still) mulitple nightwakings.
She is an extremely spirited child, very bright, to the point that many people have mistaken her for at least half a year or more older than she is--even her new pediatrician. This is making it impossible to move her on. She senses my tenseness and anger and stays awake... (or she decides she has to get up to poop about an hour after we have started nursing to sleep GRRRRR)
I cannot explain how horrible and angry I feel after just a few minutes of nursing. I regret not weaning her younger, when it may have been easier. Now her strong will is preventing any attempts.
I ask her if she wants to hug mommy instead tonight, she ALWAYS says "no, nigh night!!!" (her word for nursing) and I usually try to hug her for a minute anyway to see if she will buy it but she usually doesnt. On occasion she will nurse for a while and then ask to hug mommy to fall asleep, but if I unlatch her to early to see if she wants to hug, it takes like another 20 minutes to get her back to that point.....