I am at a loss and don't know what else to do. I just don't understand why breastfeeding is so hard for me. I chose formula with my 1st from day 1. So I went with it with my 2nd too and then decided to try breastfeeding a few weeks in but I had waited too long and had no idea what I was doing so it didn't last more than a week. With my 3rd I wanted to breastfeed. It never went well. My supply never was enough. I tried everything except prescription medication to up my supply and by 5 months he had fallen off the growth chart entirely and I gave up and switched to formula. So with my 4th and last I wanted desperately for it to work. And it went great in the beginning. But now he's 11 weeks and it's so bad I want to quit daily. He slowly started nursing less and less and was nursing as little as 4 mins total from both sides. And absolutely freaking out if I tried to get him to nurse longer. I've gotten him to nurse better over the last couple weeks (it varies from 9 to 20 mins total now) but he's still not nursing enough. I have a scale at home to keep track of his weight and he's gained nearly nothing in 2 weeks. I don't respond to pumping. He won't nurse longer to up my supply. He gets so frustrated nursing after my let down slows that he just won't do it after a few sucks. The doctors say he has reflux and severe colic. He has cried more than he doesn't since day 1. It was so weird to have this 1 day old baby would never stopped crying unless he was nursing. No one visiting could even hold him for a few mins before handing him back because he was screaming. And while he's a little better, he still cries, A LOT. I'm exhausted and just want nursing to work but I'm at a loss at what to do to make it better.