My homebirth turned into an emergency C- section at 42 + 2 when her biophysical profile took a serious dive. Luckily baby was healthy, but covered in meconium and had to be deeply suctioned.
Baby went skin to skin within 20 minutes of birth and my midwife helped me bring her to the breast. She said baby was latching, but I was pretty sure it didnt seem right. I have flat nipples and large breasts and it just didnt feel like she was getting enough of them in her mouth.
24 hours later I knew something wasnt right, she was incredibly unhappy when I brought her to the breast, but she tried. Mostly biting. They sent a lactation educator whose only solution was breast sheilds. I said no thanks and expressed what little colostrum I could and kept working with the babe. 12 hours later I tried the sheild.. she still was super frustrated and didnt seem to get anything, she would only nurse for a few minutes, if that with little swallowing. 24 hours later she developed a fever, had only wet one diaper and uric acid crystals were present. She was becoming lethargic. She had also dropped 9% of her birthweight.
I felt like I didnt really have any choice but to give her some formula. I syringe fed her 15 ml, crying the entire time. Thank God my milk came in a few hours later so I pumped and syringe or spoon fed.
We were dischared with a syringe and tube to run into the nipple sheild. We tried it but she screamed at the breast. I mean, became downright frantic, flaling... and when we did get her on, she just went to sleep. I couldnt deal with it anymore and introduced a breastflow bottle.
She gained a lb and 2 ounces in a week. Then we met with an LC who diagnosed her tongue tie. She was clipped at 16 days. At 18 days we went back to the LC (where she always seems to latch and feed without screaming, even though we always bring her in plenty hungry and at home we try at the first sign of hunger)- she moved 2 oz, so we know she can move milk now.. but she just doesnt seem to want to.
LC said, okay, no more bottles.
Easier said then done. Every time I bring her to my breast she screams. I dont force her on ( although I did in the beginning because that was what the stupid lactation educator said to do). We try to calm her and bring her back to the breast but she gets absolutely frantic, screaming, swiping at the breast sheild and the tube to the syringe. I literally drip out of the sheild with milk but she just doesnt want to suck. It breaks my heart. We had two feeds where she didnt do that and actually nursed for around 15 minutes. There was no rhyme to it.. she hadnt just woke up or whatnot.. she seems even more upset when we try to nurse as she is waking up, actually.
After 10 hours we tried giving her some mm via a bottle then going to the breast. No dice
After she screamed all day, I couldnt take it anymore and gave her the bottle. By then she was so upset, over tired and gassy it was just miserable.
I dont know what to do Mamas. This is breaking my heart. I do not want to EP, Im so terrified of my supply going down. Right now I pump plenty enough to feed her and to freeze around 20-30 oz a day but who knows how long that will last.
I desperately want her to eat at my breast, even if it has to be with the sheild. She has no interest in even trying without it. Ive tried every boob sandwich technique, ice, etc and she doesnt want anything to do with it.
What would you do? Have I completely messed everything up? She will be 3 weeks tomorrow..
How do I get her to stop screaming and atleast try? Im practically skin to skin 80% of the day, we cosleep.
I dont know what else to do.