I'm a little conflicted, but I think night weaning is the right thing to do right now. I was gone for 4 nights in the hospital so Z couldn't nurse to sleep or overnight. He usually nurses 3-6 times overnight. I feel awful about having cut him off cold-turkey like that. DH says the first night was bad. Z slept 2 hrs then cried while DH held him/rocked him/slung him/drove him in the car/etc. for 3 hours, then slept with DH for 4 hours. But the next 3 nights he slept through the night - 8 to 6 - with barely a fuss.
I am torn between guilt for premature night-weaning and need for rest. I feel like some of my recent illness has been brought on by exhaustion and if I get more sleep it will be better for the whole family in the long run. DH is very adamant about this. He claims that he has seem me "slipping away" for several months and that Z is capable of sleeping all night and that I need to let him do so.
So last night I was home and instead of nursing Z to sleep I nursed him for about 15 minutes and then passed him off to DH who walked him around in the sling like they'd been doing. It was rougher than before because Z knew I was there and protested. But he fell asleep in less than 30 minutes with some fussing and just a little screaming. And he slept until 4am. DH just patted his back and tucked him in and he went back to sleep intil 5:45 when I declared it morning and nursed him until I was ready to get up.
I guess I just want to be reassured that I am not being a terrible mama. The only other solution I think would be going back to co-sleeping which we tried last week, but the problem is that my joints and muscles get very stiff and painful overnight and Z is an acrobatic nurser and I don't have the ability to pull him off when he decides to straddle my neck or to catch him when he randomly body-slams me.
Sorry for rambling. I'm just struggling with things not going the way I planned/expected them to. Thanks for reading if you've gotten this far.