I have a beautiful 11 week old daughter whom I adore. We have had a challenging time establishing breastfeeding (OALD, 3 cases of mastitis, cracked and bleeding nipples, and severe GERD) We are finally starting to get the hang of things now but it is still a challenge for about half of her feedings. I am writting because I broke down in tears today from stresses that are overwhelming and I finally hit a wall. Due to our financial situation, I must work from home during the day. I made a commitment to myself since I was a young girl that I would be home to raise my children. My husband supports this; however our situation requires that I put in 3-4 hours a day in order to stay afloat at least for the next year. The work that I did previously was VERY generous in letting me do some work from home; however, I am struggling.
We are currently remodeling the upstairs of our home and we live in the basement. It is a TINY, dark depressing little hole...which has not helped my post partum depression one bit. So what I am left with is trying to handle all of the house work, going on hardly any sleep (about 4 hours a night for the last three months) feedings every hour to hour and 1/2 plus trying to take care of myself and work on the computer 3-4 hours a day with a baby who wants to be held all the time and crys when I put her in her sling. My husband's time is taken in the evenings to work on the house so that we can move upstairs as soon as possible. He wants to help as much as he can, but I dont want to distract him from getting that done. Does anyone have some advise or support for a bf mom that is about to have an emotional breakdown?!