Re: Desperate for help
Don't give up yet. I know it's hard but BFing can be a lot of work at first (as you must know by now.) No one seems to talk about that part, though. Before having my son, I believed that BFing entailed putting the baby to your breast and watching them gulp down your milk. I had no idea about the number of problems that could occur...
I am one of the success stories. DS wouldn't latch at all at first. I had to spend hours each day trying to latch him while bottle-feeding him ExBM. It took 2 1/2 months to be relatively successful at it and another 2-3 weeks beyond that to be very successful. So, in total, it took us over 3 months to establish a good breastfeeding relationship.
During this time, I...cried constantly, regularly almost gave up, hated myself, intensely disliked my son for "doing this to me", hated that I was adamant about BFing, hated pumping, etc... I stuck with it, though, because I know that it's the best thing I can do for my DS. This website helped me tremendously because I didn't have any lactation consultants or groups or anyone else to help me. I was pretty much on my own.
You are having a hard time (although your milk supply is probably just fine as the pps said.) You're tired, BFing isn't going as well as you'd like it to...just take it day-by-day, breathe deeply and a lot , give yourself little breaks when you need them. Things WILL get better. I promise!
Andrea - mama to Laith 02.20.07 and Sommer 01.21.11
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