Hello to all. I'm new to this board and a new mother to my new daughter as of Oct. 13th.
I've wanted to breastfeed since the very beginning even before my daughter arrived I received a breast pump and several breastfeeding products at my baby showers. I figured my MIL and SIL breastfed why couldn't I? This should be easy right? At the hospital none of the nurses really knew anything about breastfeeding. The nurses told me to have my dd latch on while either yauning or crying! She never yauned much and when she did she'd turn her head away from my breast. This didn't make much sense to me. Why would I want my baby to be crying just before every feeding? Her tongue was up while crying so she couldn't latch on right even if we tried. Needless to say I felt like a bad mother by making her cry and emotionally I couldn't stand to see my dd so upset. I finally called in a lactation consultant on my final day at the hospital. I had some bad blisters on both nipples in just 2 days of breastfeeding! The consultant helped me with positioning and I was doing much better after a couple of days of being home. Things were going fine until....my nipples started hurting again and the late nights and lack of sleep made breastfeeding less enjoyable for the both of us. I kept on breastfeeding and I noticed she'd start to get fussy even after feeding her. I pumped to see how much I was getting from each breast and it was an ounce each. My ped. said that was really good. My dd gained a pound since she's been home from the hospital so I don't understand why all of a sudden she's so fussy? The fussiness has been going on almost since day one. I introduced pacifiers at about a week and a half because she loves to have her hands in her mouth all of the time. My dd loves the pacifier and she still takes to my breast. She seems to latch on really well to my right breast and my left has always hurt since day one even with the lactation consultants help. I've tried different positions, but nothing works. So at about a week and a half I started pumping the left breast while having her feed on my right. This became rather conveinent so I ended up pumping both. After feeding her bottles for about 4 days or so and only breastfeeding her on occasion I noticed she was still hungry for more and fisting. So I'd give her a little formula from those sample cans you get in the mail. Yes, I felt like a bad mother all over again. I was told by my SIL and MIL supplimenting during the first month is a really bad thing because it can decrease your milk supply. I was too tired to care about what they've said to me and I gave in to formula during her night feedings and whatever breastmilk I expressed I'd mix it in with the formula. My milk supply is so weird during one pumping I can express from my Left breast 1 1/2 - 3 1/2 ounces. From my Right I can express 1 - 2 1/2 ounces. In order to make my daughter feel satisfied after a feeding she needs to eat between 3 1/2 - 4 ounces at one feeding. She's not even 3 weeks old yet does this amount seem normal? Sometimes I can only pump a total of 2 ounces and then I end up mixing another 2 ounces of formula in with the breastmilk. I'm afraid if I don't add formula my dd go hungry. On the emotional side of things I like to breastfeed knowing she's getting what God intended for her. On the other hand when my dd's not satisfied it leaves us both in tears. Any help would be much appreciated. Sorry I wrote a book.