I am not sure if this is the appropriate place for this topic. And, I am not looking for answers exactly. I think I more or less need to vent a little.
My daughter will not take a bottle, and she will not drink bm out of a glass. She continues to wake up every couple hours to nurse, and completely freaks out if anybody goes into the bedroom besides me to comfort her. She is also a very clingy child, which my husband feels is because she is breastfed and always worn for easier nursing. Given all of this, my daughter has never been with a babysitter. In fact, she has never been with my husband for more than an hour. For the last 10 months, I have had my daughter basically attached to me at all times. I can't go out by myself, I can't go out with friends unless with the baby, I can't go out with my husband, and I can't go out period after 8:00 because she is a very light sleeper.
Given all this, it never really bothered me before. But, last Wednesday was my birthday. My husband and I had to go to a trade show. He had to set up the booth, so I didn't see him all day. That night, he had to go to a business party which I really wanted to go to. I hate eating by myself, so I got room service and stayed in the hotel all night while he went out and had fun.
I felt my husband could have done something to make me feel better about being alone. He gave me an unwrapped ugly watch from Costco in the 5 minutes we did see eachother.
Breastfeeding never bother me before. But, I feel so completely isolated now. I want to go out so badly. I have never been the homebody type before. But, now I am forced to be because my daughter can't be without me for more than an hour.
My husband gave me no sympathy, but told me that I'm her mother and she needs me. I think I need somebody to understand that my birthday really sucked, and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I think I just need someone to say I'm sorry your feeling this way, and it will get better.: