I had every intention of breastfeeding my lo for at least a year but due to traveling an hour away and working 12 hour shifts as a L&D nurse in an extremely busy hospital I gave into more and more supplementations. At work I had little time to pump (even though all my coworkers and boss were extremely supportive). When I came home, I was too tired to pump and everyones answer to my extreme fatique was to take a nap and they (my family) would feed the baby. It sounded like a great idea as my milk supply was dwindling and rest was important in keeping up my supply. I felt like I was working harder and harder and spending more and more time away from my lo in an effort to pump 1-2 ozs, at most, per session. I tried fenugreek, blessed thistle and mothers milk tea. After 4 1/2 months I let my small supply dry up. Every since then I felt like something was missing. My husband and I went away for a few days over our anniversary and he kept asking me what was wrong. I told him that I missed nursing our baby and wished I'd had never given up. To my surprise, he was very supportive of my decision to relactate. (My husband and I still argue over who gets to hold the baby or play with her, so he was very happy when he was able to start feeding her)
Currently, my lo is 6 1/2 m.o. I am eating oatmeal as often as possible. I take fenugreek, blessed thistle and reglan. I just ordered motilium as the reglan is suppose to be a short term thing and it makes me very restless and unable to concentrate. I am pumping at least every 2 hours while awake and try to power pump at least once a day. Again, to my surprise I guess my milk supply hadn't completely dried up as I get about 1/8 - 1/4 oz with each pumping session. I recently took a job closer to home which isn't nearly as busy allowing me to pump more regularly at work and see my lo more often. I think I'm on my way to increasing my supply. My only problem is my lo won't come near my breasts. She'll nustle next to me, lay on me, and allow me to comfort her but as soon as I place her in a nursing position she starts to cry. We've been sleeping together as often as possible ( I forgot to mention that I work nights), bathe together and I try to spend as much time with skin to skin contact. I ordered a SNS in attempt to get her back to the breast to increase my supply, but is there anything else I can do to get her to take the breast? At night she takes a pacifier and I don't know how to break her of that because as soon as it falls out she wakes up and cries. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated as I miss the feeling that only I as her mother can nurse her. If that never occurs I'll be happy just knowing that I am providing her with my "liquid gold" but I desperately miss holding her close to my body, looking down and watching her nurse. Thats the best feeling in the world and I miss it terribly! Why did I ever give up?