In a mad desperate attempt to get ds to take the bottle before I return to work, we exclusively fed him from a bottle, day and night. It's been almost 2 weeks now, and I am so sad, I miss him nursing and looking up at me so much! I still feed him the bottle myself, but it's just not the same. My pumping seems fruitless as well these days. I probably should have been pumping every couple of hours, but I didn't and now I can tell that my supply is dwindling. I only pumped 3 ounces after 3 hours of not pumping. I am no longer engorged either. I feel a little full in the morning, but that's pretty much it.
I have refrained from letting him nurse from me since I didn't want to interfere with the progress he was making with the bottle. In the past, it seemed to be the major thing that would set us back. We would get him to take a bottle, then he would take the breast and then cry again when we would try to give him the bottle.
I snuck myself in for a feeding in the late morning, and didn't tell dh, but my breasts seemed so deflated and ds pulled off more times than he latched on. It was a huge let down for me and ds. I have been drinking Mother's Milk tea, but I don't even know if it will work.
I guess I just need to be happy that my son will now take the bottle at daycare, and he can still get the benefits of breastmilk. I'm the one suffering emotionally now!
Has anyone else gone through this? I just hope that he won't get too used to the bottle and won't want me anymore! Also, does anyone know if you can keep a good supply up by just pumping? I am going to read some of the threads on increasing your supply in the meantime.
I guess I just needed to vent a little, and everyone here is always so supportive. DH tries, but he just doesn't seem to understand the emotional stuff that comes with breastfeeding our son. I return to work in one week, which only adds to my stress level.