Ok I feel HORRIBLE about asking this. I'm under so much stress right now and I really want a cigarette. DD never learned to take a bottle or anything so it's not as if I can go have one and then just bottle feed her from my stash for a few feedings.
How bad is it really to smoke one cigarette? I'm sure that it will make me sick and I would take a shower afterwards and change and everything. I feel so so bad for even asking and being so weak.