I have an 8 month old daughter whom I'm exclusively breastfeeding. I have tried to quit drinking caffeine and quitting alcohol but I just can't quit these bad habits. How bad is it really for her that I still drink Coke and alcohol? I almost always wait until she's in bed to drink alcohol at all, but tonight for example, I drank an 8 oz glass of beer and then breastfed her(this probably doesn't make it any better but I do only feed her one breast at a time because I let down so fast and she eats so fast that it takes a good 20 or 30 minutes to get anything to come out of the other one).I know how horrible this sounds. I usually drink about 3 Cokes a day also. I have a lot of problems and I just cannot quit. Maybe I'm overreacting but I've tried so many times to stop this for her sake but when I feel overwhelmed or fragile, I give in. I feel like I almost can't function without these things. Any advice? I hate ingesting these things because she is so young and innocent and shouldn't know how it feels so soon to feel these effects. I feel so guilty that I'm still doing this and that she is ingesting these things at such a fragile young age because of my own problems. She is so perfect and I don't want to hurt her or let her innocence get lost but I need these things! I must be the most awful mother in the world! Although I guess it could be worse. I guess that it's not that bad but I still don't like her drinking these things in my milk. Given the amount that I'm drinking, which wouldn't seem like much to most people, but in the light of nursing a baby, is it best that I stop breastfeeding her or just keep trying to quit and work around the times that I drink caffeine and alcohol?
One more thing, my breastmilk sprays out really quickly when I feed her. It also feels painful when the milk lets down and sprays out on her. She coughs and turns away a lot. Also has a lot of gas and the milk comes out sooo fast. I read about a problem called hyperactive milk disorder, or something. I think that that's what the name of it is. I've read that it's caused by having too many aveoli on your nipples but that other pituitary problems can cause that too. Would anyone recommend seeing a doctor about that and if so, what kind of doctor would you see? I have a lot of other problems so it can't hurt to have that checked out right? Thanks for reading all of this to whoever did! Have a wonderful evening, Sincerely, Leche83