My baby girl is 17 days old today, and I have still been unsuccessful at getting her to breastfeed. Much of the problem stems from the fact that she had jaundice when she was born. To lower the biliruben levels, the pediatricians started her on formula. Much to my dismay, I didn't realize that the bottles had fast flow nipples. So, on day 4, when I brought her home, she was quite used to the fast flow. I called the certified lactation consultant a few days later because I still could not breastfeed, and I met with her the next day. Unfortunately, my daughter was sleepy, so the nurse was unable to see just how mad my little girl gets when I try to breastfeed (she cries hysterically and pushes away). the RN gave me a Medela nipple shield to try, thinking that flooding it would help trick her into sucking. I tried that, but to no avail. Then, I met with the RN again, and she had me get a Medela finger feeder, which I was to use to flood the nipple shield more easily. Still, that too was unsuccessful. I met with the RN one more time last Friday and she seemed to be at a loss. She saw just how mad my baby can get.
While I have been trying, it seems in vain, to get my daughter to nurse, I have been pumping my milk and feeding her with a Avent bottle with a size one nipple. I know everyone says to never use a bottle, but I had to early on to flush out the biliruben and get her healthier.
But I feel cheated. No one I know has had this experience. Yes, all moms I have talked to say breastfeeding was tough but their babies eventaully got the hang of it. But, I feel like the exception. I try and try but feel like I am failing. And I know time is of the essence.
I called local la leche mothers, but they all have said my problem is beyond their ability to help and told me to see a lactation specialist. I did. No luck.
So, I am wondering if there is anything else I can do. I continue to pump, but it is taxing on me physically and emotionally. I want to breastfeed my child, but I am losing faith. Is my situation a no-win situation? Is it hopeless?
Thank you in advance for any help you can give to me.