This morning my white blood count has doubled. I found out i have an infection in the uterine lining and that is what most likely caused me to rupture. Braydens cultures come back hopefully tonight or tomorrow. I am now hooked back up to IVs and back into bed until we can get this infection under control.
The worst part is the NICU said i can not visit Brayden. My heart sank when they told me. I really feel upset about the whole birth experience esp going under general anesthesia and now i can't even look at my baby. This is by far the most difficult thing i've ever had to deal with in my life. I just want to "be there" for my baby. I have to pump and dump because of the antibiotics. I am just having one bummer of a day!
Brayden had a setback today. They had to up his oxygen to 40%...he has been on room temperature with just the C-Pap expanding his lungs. They have since weaned him back to the 21% so it only worsened temporarily.
I have been one big bawling machine lately. DH and i are just not seeing things eye to eye and he left today to spend some time with the girls. My poor girls have had a rough time. The NICU is very sterile. They are not proactive when it comes to kangaroo care (naked chest to chest) or even breastfeeding. They won't let siblings visit...let alone even look at the baby. It's just hard to explain to my 5 and 2 year old when i can even show the baby even through a glass. Heck, i can't even see him myself. I understand the precautions, but i had this BEFORE i delivered. You know? I don't think i'm being irrational? This is MY baby!!! Argh---so mad here.
I'm feeling pretty good as far as the CS recovery goes. I have some oozing from the wound. Has anyone else had this????