Okay, I have been on the fence about stopping and then yesterday I had new hope.
Last night and this morning were far from easy. I nursed dd2 all day yesterday except one bottle. She nursed last night from 130am until 10am every hour on the hour and for only a few minutes here and there up to 15min. Now, my breasts hurt my nipple hurt more and they are so flabby still. I took my shower and there was no let down. I normally leak like and old faucet after my warm showers. Today nothing.
I am still on the fence. I can not find anyone to come to my house to help me. I can not afford the $100+ for a lc to come to my house or me to her office. LLL can not find anyone in my area and my new found hope from yesterday is gone gone GONE.
Anyone have any ideas what is going on with me? I go from OALD to nothing in 24hrs. I mean I was a little proud of myself yesterday. I went to Walmart without bottles and when she woke to eat I made my way to the front of the store to sit and feed her while dh finished the shopping. Then I wondered what on earth will I do when I am alone. Then it hit me...I will not be going to the stores or out with just the kids and I ever again. Well that did not make me happy. FF or bf I am stuck at home with all three kids.
Anywho, dh ordered a nice big thunderstorm for me...so I am going to enjoy a cup of coffee and watch the rain and pray dd2 keeps sleeping or I will be crying with her.