Im brand new here and I hope you don't mind me asking my question in your forum.. I figure you EN have a lot of wisdom.
Anyway, I have a question but I want to share a quick story with you all.
I have two boys, 3years and DS2 is 16 months.
I fed DS1 for 3 days only. I found it very tough and painful and I found having a new baby home a very daunting experience and could feel myself slipping into PND so I ff him. I felt awful guilt. I work in the Health care area so I knew well the benifets.
When I got pregnant with DS2 I was determined to Bf. I read up on it and went to a couple of classes. When I was 8 months pregnant we found out that my DH needed a triple bypass (38 years old, non smoker, low cholosterol, but family history) ASAP.
DS2 arrived a born feeder and I was so determined to do it I met every problem/challange head on and we got on great.
When DS2 was 6 weeks my DH has his operation.
I fed him until 8 months.. I fed exclusivly for 6 months, then when I returned to work, just morning and night. I weaned at 8 months as we went to a good friends wedding in Italy. My parents took the boys and insisted we go for a week. We took the chance. We had been through such a horrible time and we needed "Us" time for our marriage.
I have been reading up on the benifits of BF and cardio disease in later life. I feel so awful for not feeding DS1 at all and DS2 for such a short time. If they fall ill how will I live with myself?
If anybody can point me towards any articles or any words to help it would be much appriciated.