Okay I have been on the seesaw for almost three days. I am about to switch to formula for many reasons. I only started bf to help with the budget but found out I am only helping by $110 a month give or take a few dollars.
I am tired of being the sole feeder and I think my need to bf it to bond with her. With dd1 she was my first and I had all the time in the world to be with her while pg and after birth. With ds he is my son and I found 2 kids more work than one but not too tough. With dd2 I have no real bond to her. I never took the time to read to her while pg. I was under sooo much stress while pg and I really never enjoyed the pg. I feel guilty because I have no bond with her. When we sit to nurse I get sick, angry, sad, tired, want to cuddle, wish I could just have dh feed her.....I am tired of the emotions.
Thanks for listening ^_~