Ohhhh...... I totally NEED to vent! And, I'm just wondering if anyone else has a baby like mine.
She is 8.5 months old, and about 27 pounds.... I know kellymom and LLL and some other books I've read say not to worry about weight in either direction but 27 pounds looks pretty ridiculous on such a little 8 month old. So I worry she's eating too much.... and I'm worried everyone else thinks I'm feeding her too much.
Besides that since the day she was born she has been a stinker to put to sleep! I can't stand it, it is beginning to get soooo frustrating. I have her on a strict schedule now, but even nursing her to sleep, it is still quite a challenge to get her to sleep! Why??! She struggles even while she is sucking to toss and turn, and if I let her; she just starts tossing and turning, then trying to crawl then next thing you know she is sliding off the bed and crying at the same time, of course because she is sooo tierd... so I hold her in the same position weather she likes it or not and stick my boob in her face (which I wonder if that is causing the weight) and sometimes she cries loudly for about 5 min, then finally sucks and goes to sleep.... or she'll whimper gently for just a couple min, then suck and go to sleep.
For the longest time when she acted like that I just let her get up... but I realize now that hasn't been good for her, she becomes overtierd... then that's the end of any hopes for a decent day!
Also she seems to be very high maintenance! Like having to be entertained or something needs to be very highly stimulating or else she gets bored and she HATES to be bored and she lets me know. So I am constantly entertaining and playing and taking her here and taking her there to keep her stimulated and keep her learning... which I don't mind that part at all... I live for that part of it... but she does not like to cuddle!!! That really is starting to get to me. She hates kisses and anything that gets too close to her face. So I feel like, Oh come on Kaylee all this I go through for you and you can't just give me one little cuddle or kiss. I always steel them from her, which makes her fussy for a couple of minutes. She's not even cuddly when she is tired or hurt or anything.. it's like when she's tired or anything else she does the opposite of laying her head on my shoulder for comfort she pushes away and the only thing that stops her from crying or fussing is something interesting or stimulating to her!! Oh I feel soo jipped! Sometimes I feel like I just want her to be comforted by ME. By me holding and cuddling her, not something else, not the milk coming out of my boob, but ME! And sometimes I just feel like I need to feel her hug me... maybe she's still too young yet? I dunno
anyone else have babies like this, or am I the only one? I hope my next one is more loving!
Thanks for letting me vent! ugh!