I am a FTM. My baby was born by emergency c/s after 19 hrs of labor and over an hour of pushing. He is a little over 5 weeks old. I tried breastfeeding him shortly after he was born and he would not latch-on. I was told I had "flat nipples" (perhaps because my breasts were swollen). I kept trying while in the hospital but eventually he had to be supplemented with formula, because he was not urinating. I started pumping at that point and giving him what I could, and when my milk came in (4 days later), I stopped giving him formula and have been pumping and giving him breastmilk only. I have been trying to breastfeed him everyday since then for over a month now, but he would not stay at the breast for any longer than a few minutes, even with the breast shield. I think he now has a bad case of nipple confusion, and wants the milk to flow easily as in the bottle. He gets frustrated. The other day I decided I would not offer breastmilk in a bottle but instead i would breastfeed only. At first he put up a fight, but after about 5 min, he actually breastfed for half an hour, so I tried to do the same in the next feeding. By then my nipples hurt a lot, but I really wanted to try this. I figured he probably was not latched-on correctly so I kept fixing him. This only made it worse because he started screaming everytime I tried to get him to re-latch. It was very painful for me. As the day passed he grew more frustrated of breastfeeding and seemed more hungry until he would just not latch anymore. I finally gave up and told my husband to give him a bottle. I resumed pumping. I was very shocked when I looked at the milk I had pumped and it was reddish pink. I didn't see any blood on the outside of my nipples but the milk definitely had blood in it. I am now too afraid to try breastfeeding again. My milk has turned white again, but I am very frustrated because I want to feed him breastmilk for as long as possible, but pumping every three hours is difficult and time consuming. I think breastfeeding is more convenient ( no pump or bottles to deal with). Any advice? Has anything similar happened to anyone?