This is partly a rant, and partly I need advice
I started back at work last week. I asked for some schedule changes so that I wouldn't be away from DS for so many hours in a row, but they weren't approved. My boss said she was very in support of my pumping - 'do what I needed to' in regards to it.
However, the whole thing has become hugely stressful. Right before DS was born, I got promoted to being a manager (although I don't actually manage anyone, its just a silly title). But my boss now expects a different standard, one that apparently doesn't involve taking any breaks during the day. She is acting completely different from what she said before I started back! We are pretty understaffed and she keeps putting me on the counter for hours at a time, so its hard to sneak away. Today she said, "I know its hard with the baby and all, but since we're managers our breaks and lunches are the ones to go first."
What do I do?? I've always been a really dedicated and hard working employee - I still arrive at work 15 mins early and cut my lunches short a little. Pumping, when I finally can, is becoming harder. Twice today I only got half the amount I usually do. Plus, I'm doing it in an unused restroom which doesn't lock, so I'm always afraid someone is going to walk in.
To continue my rant just a bit more, in order to pick DS up on time (and avoid a $25 per 10minute late fee), I have to leave work EXACTLY at 5pm. My boss keeps pulling me into her office at like 4:45 to talk about something. Then I have to drive like a crazy person and end up completely stressed by the time I get to DS's daycare (and feel horrible because he is the last kid in the entire building).
I'm thinking seriously about looking for a different job, but career-wise, this job is my dream. The money also helps, of course.
I just don't know what to do - pumping and working are seeming so completely incompatible.