I have never been successful at nursing and this is my fourth child, fourth attempt. My daughter is 4 months old and has not shown a weight gain in the last 2 weeks... now, she may have gained and lost, but I went 2 weeks without weighing her because everything seemed to be going fine. We *had* been successfully gaining approximately 1/2 ounce per day prior to this.
We still have wet diapers and usually 1 bowel movement per day, sometimes up to 3, like today. Bowel movements are typically dark mustard yellow, very liquid. I have tried pumping and nothing comes out, although I can squeeze milk out by hand, not much. I feed on demand, she is on the breast sometimes an hour or more and we co-sleep, with her latched on as frequently as she likes... like a human paci. My breasts are totally lopsided (deformity, like a b cup and a dd cup, always not just when nursing) and my nipples are quite flat... although she seems to latch on real fine. She gulps and swallows for only about a minute, struggles really... and then she screams for more. And once she has gulped and swallowed for a couple minutes, there is no more milk. I can't pump it, squeeze it, nothing. I have never produced much milk and she has had to eat every hour or so since being born, but now it seems like I'm losing what little supply I have. I tried the SNS tonight and she ate like she was starving to death.
I'm ready to throw in the towel and give my poor little hungry girl a bottle. I'm just in tears over failing a fourth time... I try so hard and I'm still doing something wrong. Does anyone have any advice?