I just want to thank everyone for their thoughts on this, it gave me more to think about. I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to start off FT see how it goes and if it's too much or if I feel I'm away from DS too long i'll cut back to PT. I want to give FT at least 2 months. I'm sure it will take a bit to get adjusted, but 2 months should be enough time to see how it works.
Looking at my son and knowing that he won't understand why i'm leaving or why he's not with me is what makes going back to work so much harder. I hope he adjusts well and doesn't cry too often . I hope i don't cry too much either. I'm sure as time goes on we'll both get adjusted and we'll get by just fine.