Hi ladies. I didn't know where to put this. Anywho here it goes. I just need to get this out.
Lately I find myself obsessing about bf. Will it work out? How will my daughter be with me bf (she will be 25months)? Will I be able to do this? Will I make enough milk?
It is keeping me up at night. You see I had bf issues w/ Maya. She was in the NICU so I had to pump and then she would not latch once she was home. So I decided to keep pumping. I eventually became depressed w/ pumping non stop and I gave up. It is something I truly regret.
So now that I am pregnant again I am determined to make this bfing relationship work. I feel like I don't have much support from family and I know that is important. My dh is great but he just doesn't "get it". My Mom made the comment that if I was going to try BFing again I will be taking time away from Maya! WTH?!
I feel consumed by this BFing stuff. I want it to work so bad but because of my past experience I worry all the time and the baby isn't even here! LOL
I'm sorry if this all seems jumbled I just needed to get that out. Thanks for listening.