OK, ladies. I need your help. We leave on our trip tomorrow evening . We will be gone for a week. Grace is staying at home and my mom is taking care of her. I know that my mom will spoil her rotten, like all grandmas do, and I know that she will care for her just as well as I do, but I cannot help but freak out a bit about leaving Grace. I know that it is good to have time away, and I have not been away from her for more than 9 hours; she is 3 weeks shy of turning one.
I have all of these paranoias. My first one is that ever-constant fear of SIDS. The history behind that is I have a friend whose DD died of SIDS 10 (yes, 10) days before her first birthday. Grace was not quite a month old when that happened. Ever since then it has constantly been on my mind. Another great paranoia is that something will happen to Grace where she will get hurt and I will be a billion miles away and unable to do anything or my mom will not be able to reach me if something does happen. (We do have our bases covered with that and have a document that states that my mom has the power to make medical decisions while Grace is in her care.) My last one is that something will happen to Steve and/or myself (mainly death) and we will not be able to care for Grace. (Again, we have our bases covered with this one with a document that states that my parents will get custody of her if something should happen.)
I am pretty sure that DH is about ready to slap me, but I feel like I have to voice all of these fears, irrational or not. Am I crazy? Will I think about all these things our entire trip and not enjoy the paradise we will be in? Calm me down. Talk me off that ledge. Tell me everything is going to be all right. Give me the reassurance I need to calm my nerves so I don't have to worry about this anymore. TIA, and I owe you all one.