Hi, I'm Sara. I delivered my 2nd son 6 days ago. I developed HELLP at 34 weeks and Henry was born via emergency c-section very quickly and I still feel a bit of shock over the whole thing. I had never intended to breastfeed him since I didn't breastfeed my first son (for no good reason really) - but have him be so small and vulnerable, my brain suddenly "clicked" and I'm dead set on breastfeeding this little guy. BUT... I'm starting from super scratch.
I'm pumping at home with a hospital rented pump (medela lactina I believe it is called) and am pumping 7 times during the day plus once at night if I wake up. I'm recovering from a c-section, and I wasn't able to pump in the hospital until 2 full days after he was born because I was still so ill.
I'm not making enough to feed him exclusively on breastmilk, and they NICU nurses are fortifying what I give them, and are really encouraging to me. I have seen the lactation lady at the hospital but she wasn't in today and I have a few worries...
I don't feel like I'm making enough. With 7-8 pumps a day, I'm averaging about 25 cc's (just under one ounce) per pump session. (That is as of today, which is 6 days after giving birth). I'm keeping myself well hydrated, I have my in-laws with me to help take care of my toddler, and I'm eating well.
Is it unusual to be not be making more milk? I expected more by this point. My problem isn't really that he's getting fortifier as well as my milk... my problem is my worry that my supply won't ever increase, and might just dwindle off since it isn't getting any stronger.
I'm an absolute wreck over this really... like I said I hadn't prepared myself at all to breastfeed, and my mother died only 2 weeks before my preemie was born so I don't have my own mommy to call up and ask for help. Like I said, the lactation lady at the hospital is very helpful and I know I'll get good support through her and elsewhere, but for right now until she's back I'm just trying to feel better about what I feel like is my body's total inability to take care of this child. First it failed on me by having a string of miscarriages, then it failed on me by having a premature baby, and I don't trust it enough to not fail on me now even though I'm desperate to suceed with this.
Thank you for listening to the admittedly hormone-driven rant... I just want what is best for my little guy and worried that I can't give that to him.