I am a young mother of a beautiful 5-month-old baby girl. I had started out breastfeeding and had tons of support from my mother and sister-in-law. Then my husband's stepfather died, and he offered to let his mother live with us to help with her severe loneliness and depression. She fed her three children formula, and so did her two daughters. His step-sisters formula-fed as well as a few cousins. Breastfeeding itself was hard enough, but if I tried it in front of them, or even left the room and came back again, there would be an awkward silence that would almost bring me to tears. My husband also supported formula-feeding and in the end I became so frustrated I gave up.
I found out recently that I am pregnant again, and I desperately want to breastfeed, but I have absolutely no support. His mother has been the most blunt about it, already telling me that she thinks breastfeeding old-fashioned and unneccessary. She just can't fathom why someone would tie themselves down to their baby when formula is so easy. I've explained numerous times how beneficial it is, but they still don't see my point of view. We live surrounded by his family, while the closest family member of mine is 50 miles away. There's always someone from his side of the family over here, and with formula being the normal way to feed their babies, I feel different and unaccepted by everyone who is around me on a day-to-day basis. What can I possibly do???