Abby's still not gaining any weight. In fact, with that whole schedule of every 2 hours over the weekend she gained NOTHING.
Every doctor or nurse I see suggests supplementing with formula. I'm dead set against it.. But I'm almost at the point where I'm willing.
I thought about buying some last night, but the list of ingredients makes me just ill. I don't know what else to do to feed my daughter and I feel like a giant failure.
I've been put on something called Domperidone which is supposed to increase milk by up to 25%. I started taking it last night and have noticed no results so far.. I just hope to god that she gains weight because I don't know how much more or this feeling like a failure I can take.
My mom called to say that I don't need to be "supermommy" but I feel like I do. If I know something is not as good as something else, how can I in good conscience choose the worst option???
So know now that if I do fail, and if I do give up.. That there is no way anyone can say I didn't try.
I've been trying hard.
Mommying is difficult.
Sorry for the rant ladies. I'm just tired and feeling like I'm not a good enough mom.