I am sorry this is long but I really need your help!
I believe my milk production has taken a dive in the last week. My breast do not feel as full and my LO (2.5 months) is more fussy at the breast. She will eat for 5 minutes and fall asleep. She will sleep as long as I am holding her (up to 3 hours). If I attempt to put her down when she falls asleep at the breast she wakes and screams. When I try to put her back to the breast she roots and rubs her right cheek on my breast, licks the nipple and rubs her chin on the nipple. She will do this for several minutes and then get mad and scream. All the while I am attempting to shove my nipple into her mouth and she refuses to latch.
To get her to latch I must give her my finger to suck on. When she gets calm and sucking good on my finger I slip my finger out and my nipple in as quick as possible. Needless to say, the latch is not that good and it hurts a little but it is the only way to get her back on.
I am stressed b/c of the holiday and I return to work the first week of Jan so that has me upset too. I wish I could be a stay at home mom but we can not afford for me to do so. I'm sure the stress is impacting my supply but I do not know how to handle it. Today I flipped out and bought fenugreek (took it 3 caps / 3 timer today), drank 6 cups of Mothers-milk tea and ate Oatmeal all day long (9 bowls). This is not like me and I am crying and freaking out. I'm generally not this way, I am educated and know not to go crazy with the OTC herbs and oatmeal but I do not know what is going on.
I am not myself and it really frightens me.
What do I do? I have not had PPD or any problems like that but if I had to guess what it feels like this would be it. I hope I am wrong. I am afraid to ask/tell anyone b/c I am the type of person that can not admit I have a problem or ask for help (except here where you do not know me and I do not feel judged).