I think I'm going insane!
When my son was first born, I struggled for 2 weeks to get him to latch on and feed properly, and he was still losing weight. It was a horrible time in my life - post unplanned c-section and dealing with a baby I was convinced was going to die because I couldn't feed him. Thankfully, I eventually got it all figured out (thanks to several meetings with LC's at the hospital), and now at 2 months old, he is 1/2 LB off doubling his birth weight - and it's all breast milk.
My problem is, from those first horrible 2 weeks on, I have this mentality that whenever my baby is awake I have to feed him to try andf fatten him up. I constantly watch the clock - every feeding session is timed. I don't want to do this, but it has become compulsive. I get really anxious if he sleeps for longer than 3 hours during the day. I get nervous butterflies and struggle with waking him up to feed. When he spits up, I feel like a failure and I worry that he's not getting enough food again and will lose weight like before. It's horrible, and I don't know what to do about this!
I read so many books in the beginning that said to time feedings, and that feedings should be 1.5-3 hours apart, and now that advice is ruling my life. Sorry - I just needed to get that off my chest...http://forums.llli.org/images/smilies/redface.gif