So I have been EP for LO since she was about 4 weeks old. Direct BF just didn't work out for us. She nursed constantly and never seemed happy and the devastating nipple pain NEVER went away. I refused to give her formula (not that there's anything wrong with that) but I WANTED to BF. Head strong to give her the best I could give her I began pumping at 4 weeks old.
Here I am with LO just 4 weeks away from her first birthday and I'm ready to wean from my pump. I have an ENORMOUS frozen supply from the previous months of EP and I figured I could start giving her frozen milk now through to her first bday.... But I've read over and over that frozen milk isn't as good as fresh milk.
So here I am, down to two pumps a day, bawling my eyes out because I want to quit pumping but I'm terrified of only giving her frozen milk! I feel guilty for wanting to stop pumping because I know fresh milk is best for her! Yet I just want to wear normal bras and get my body back. I feel this deep sense of guilt for wanting to wean from the pump when it's been a part of me for so long now... I'm torn.
Should I continue weaning and give her frozen milk? I know any breast milk is better than all formula.
Or should I just keep pumping?.... I can't stop the tears. Please someone tell me I'm going to be ok? Tell me that it's ok to give her frozen milk for a few weeks so I can be normal again!....
First time mom
Setting the bar too high
Just wanting to do what's best
Mercedes