I have come to the conclusion that I need to start sending some supplemental formula to daycare. I just can't keep up with pumping - and I hate it! I usually only get a chance to pump once a day, and that session is only producing 4-5 oz total, where I used to get 8-10 oz. I have to lug my breastpump to and from work so I can pump at home before bed just to eek out enough milk for the next day. If I get stuck at work late there's nothing at home for Daddy to give him! Even when I do get to pump a couple extra sessions at work my production seems to be suffering and I can't keep up the schedule to up my supply. I'm taking Fenugreek but that only seemed to help in the beginning.
The stress this is causing me can't me good for my supply either. Knowing that I have a milk alternative for Allen would be a HUGE load off my mind. I'll still nurse him whenever he wants at home and I'll pump at work when I get a chance but having a backup plan - whew, that would be nice.
I'm beating myself up about this decision! I feel like I'm failing him or that I shouldn't have to switch - but I work full time and then some! I've breastfed him from the beginning and went back to work when he was 8 weeks old. I've been pumping for quite some time and it was all worth it - but I need a break, is that selfish of me?
I am my worst critic I think. I'm not giving up or failing my son - I just keep telling myself that.
Thanks for letting me vent!