I started breastfeeding in the hospital and received almost no help or support from hospital staff, who seemed to be too inconvenienced any time I asked for help, so I stopped asking. Eventually my nipples began to crack and bleed and I was offered a nipple shield, but even that was too painful by this point. By the time I healed my baby was stuck on a bottle.
I've tried several times to go back to breast, using nipple shield and SNS and anything I could think of, to no avail. I decided to mourn the loss of that experience and have been pumping constantly to give her as much milk as I can, and supplementing with formula.
As she turned three months and became more mouthy I decided on a whim to try again--and she latched perfectly right away! I was floored. I cried with joy and nursed her twice more.
Today after work I nursed her once. The next time she REFUSED AGAIN and demanded the bottle. I'm at a loss, and even more depressed than before because now I KNOW SHE CAN DO IT AND SHE ENJOYED IT.
ANY advice, support, suggestions, personal experiences, words of wisdom, or just kind words would be much appreciated in this trying time. I'm still not sure what to do at this point, but now I just don't want to give up again, even though her frustrated tears make me want to never try to offer my breast again.