My baby is almost 6 months old.
Does anyone have any information on how much nutrients deplete from breastmilk once you express it and chill / freeze? I'm really hung up on BF without bottles but am trying to get comfortable with the idea of giving her a bottle of my EBM. I have used bottles with her early on because I had horrible cracks in the very beginning, but stopped as soon as I healed, about 1.5-2 months. Then she was bottle fed once around 3 mos. Although I'm concerned about her suddenly not taking the bottle, I think she would. I am hung up on the fact that her feeding directly from me is the best as in best quality of milk, and don't like the thought of her bottle feeding.
Also, I get very bothered thinking of my MIL giving her a bottle. I wouldn't even let my own mom do it when she visited when I was using bottles. I only ever felt ok with my husband doing it, (I didn't even like to do it, was weird).
In general I feel very possessive over leaving my baby with anyone. In particular when it comes to his and my Moms, but my mom was only here for a couple weeks visiting early on and his mom lives 3 minutes down the road. I don't know why, but it grates my nerves raw thinking about it when in reality there is no true problem when they (MIL and baby) are together.
It has been 6mos and I would like to enjoy a date night with my husband. I am trying to let go of the reigns but feel ostracized because I am the only BF example of any of the many babies around us,so, feel that perhaps I am overly controlling.
Could it be that biologically I am just not ready to do it? However, I don't think it is a wise idea to go another 6mos but logistically speaking I'm unwilling to do it. I'm aware I could potentially leave have dinner and be back in time before her actually needing a bottle, still I would be leaving her.