Hi, I am a first time mom to an almost 4 week old daughter (will be 4 weeks this sunday). The first probably 2 and a half weeks breastfeeding was no issue. I did start pumping when she was 4 days old to get a freezer stash built up, I go back to work when she is 7 weeks old. I was pumping probably 4 days a week for the first 2 weeks, but ended up with way too much milk, I have over 250 oz's in the freezer now. I am now only pumping 2 times a day, not sure if I should cut back but I want to make sure I have enough milk when I'm at work. I work night shift, she will be away from me from 7am-4:30 pm so I can sleep, all night 7p-7a while I work, and half of the next day while I sleep. Anyways that was the background info.
Ever since she was about 2.5 weeks old she does this thing were she pushes me away when she is nursing, or she will just come unlatched and start screaming while she's nursing. Sometimes it's during my letdown. If that's the case I hand express and she will latch back on. She will suck for a couple seconds but start screaming again. When she starts doing this she won't stop, there is no point in me continuing to try to feed her because she will never calm down. Even when my letdown is well over, 30 minutes later she will still be doing this if I let it go on that long. I have tried feeding her in a reclined position, different holds, nothing works. I will try nursing on the other side. Sometimes that works but usually it doesn't. She's clearly still hungry, rooting around. I don't know what to do. Breastfeeding is supposed to be a bonding and enjoyable experience and it's not. She hates it. I hate seeing her so upset. I don't know why I force her to continue to do this when she hates it so bad- I just really don't want to give up. I will give in and give her a bottle but that's only happened twice in the middle of the night when I'm having an emotional breakdown and 2 hours of trying off and on and she's still doing it. But I feel like every time I give her the bottle it's one step closer to not breastfeeding anymore. I have called the hospital, her ped, my OB, I am a nicu nurse and I teach moms how to breastfeed, I have contacted my coworkers to see it they have any suggestions. I don't know what else to do and desperately don't want to give up. Help!