Hi everyone - this is my first post here and I am in need of some encouragement. I feel like I have had nearly everything go wrong with breastfeeding. Couldn't latch, shallow latch, lost too much weight, posterior tongue tie, gained slowly, reflux, clogged ducts, excess lipase... I thought we had finally made it after the 2-month mark.
Then I had to go back to work. She got her first cold and went back to day care at around the same time - I've been struggling to pump enough. She's become very very fussy when I try to nurse her most of the time, and sometimes outright refuses to nurse. At first I thought this was because of a cold/congestion, but it's still going on. She nurses ok when she's sleeping or almost asleep, but her last feed before day care and her first feed after day care is always fitful, flailing, and anxious. It usually ends with me trying hard to get her to nurse and her screaming. I had imagined a nice peaceful happy reunion nursing session after a long day away from her and it's just the opposite - totally unpleasant and difficult. I'm concerned she's developing a preference for the bottle and am beginning to get depressed.
Does anyone have any words of encouragement or ideas for me? Thank you.