Re: I need sleep
I agree with zaynethepain that you should seek therapy if you have not done so already. In the past, when I suffered from anxiety and depression, the first place my doctor sent me was to get some meds. I think medication is the right course for some people, but there was no other advice or help -- they just pushed medication on me and sent me on my un-merry way. Evidence shows that medication coupled with behavioral therapy is much more effective than just medication. That makes sense -- the medication can help you get your thoughts in line, but talking about fears and concerns and worries will help understand them better. In your case, if taking the medication is causing you INCREASED worry about the risk to your child, then it would be a very important route, I'd say. I feel like SIDS is a very legitimate cause for anxiety -- it is drilled into you, and you're basically told "Do all these things to prevent SIDS or it's your fault if something happens -- although no one knows the cause and you can't prevent it." How could anyone not have anxiety about that?! It to me, personally, didn't make sense to have LO in another room where I couldn't see her or help her immediately. But I would say you should have some quiet time to contact your mommy instincts, and try to find what to feels like the best option for you and your LO.
Mom to my sweet little "Pooper," born 10/12/11, and "Baby Brother," born 6/23/2014, and married to heavy metal husband. Working more than full-time, making healthy vegetarian meals for family, and trying to keep up with exercise routine.