Re: I need sleep
There's a lot of conflation of the primary bedsharing danger, which is suffocation, and SIDS. SIDS is not suffocation, and studies have found that co-sleeping actually decreases the SIDS risk- a mom who is co-sleeping tends to have pretty sensitive baby radar, and she will wake up if she senses that something isn't right with her baby.
Would it be possible for you to purchase a co-sleeper crib? That way baby would be right next to you but not sharing the same sleep surface. Ad have you gone over those safe co-sleeping checklists?
Definitely read the Pantley book. It's a realistic look at infant sleep, and it's written with co-sleeping very much in mind.
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