I went to the LC yesterday and I guess it was somewhat helpful but not a panacea. I found out he was indeed latching poorly, and also found out how hard it is to get him to latch better. I don't know how babies younger and smaller than he is ever manage it because I can barely fit enough of the breast in his mouth now, and I can only do it on my own correctly about a fourth of the time, when I have the patience to work at it, which is not all the time.
Based on the fact that my breast wasn't actually spraying across the room and I didn't produce very much (3 oz on both sides combined, measured by weighing the baby before and after feeding), she thought that he probably wasn't fighting because of letdown and too much milk but because of frustration from not getting enough. She said I should feed him on demand and that I don't have to offer him the breast every hour like I have been. She said if things aren't better next week she'll have someone look at him for a possible tongue tie. He's still fighting occasionally, but not every time, and only feeding for short durations, still.
The feelings that make me want to quit are things that I can't imagine any LC can help anyone with at all. While I feed the baby on side A, the nipple on side B starts hurting with letdown. How can that be stopped, and how can you stop it at all without hurting supply? I can't even hold my baby against my chest (his preferred position) because it hurts to have any pressure against my breast at all, to have anyone or anything, the softest slightest weight, touching them, and he's not soft or light. The sheer weight and size of my breasts are uncomfortable every minute, even after I've just been completely drained. And more superficially, I hate the way these gigantic porn star boobs make me look and how none of my tops fit even though I'm within 4 lbs of pre-baby weight and my jeans fit fine. I'm used to having an hourglass figure and now I'm an apple and I look totally disproportional. I feel very self-conscious about them. For physical discomfort and vanity issues, this is as bad as late pregnancy or worse, because this lasts longer. Can anyone give me moral support on these items or tell me there is some kind of hope for them?
We're going to the pediatrician in a week and I'll ask about acid reflux.