I have a wonderful 4 week old who will only take the bottle now and screams/struggles when offered the breast.
Initially, while in the hospital she latched on and had a great suck right away. However, after two days in the hospital and a lot of cluster feeding by nipples became cracked and very painful on the day I was discharged. My daughter had been given some formula as supplement because she was so hungry and I was in so much pain. I have flat nipples and looking back she was not likely latching on well, but no one I asked seemed to have any solutions or concerns that my nipples were getting worse. On the day I was discharged I met briefly with the staff lactation consultant who also did not off any other advice other than to keep it up.
On the day we arrived home I made the decision to let my nipples heal (were bleeding that this point) and to supplement with the bottle. I now very much regret this decision and feel awful. Then when my nipples finally healed I developed a severe case of mastitis in my right breast and was placed on antibiotics. I continued to pump and feed my daughter breast milk via bottle; however she started to have symptoms of a reaction to what I think was the antibiotic. I was scared so I stopped offering the breast milk until I completed the antibiotics.
Unfortunately, now she will not BF at all. She screams and cries as soon as I place her to the breast. She will latch on briefly if I use a nipple shield. I don't want to make her have a bad experience at the breast by forcing her. I think my flat nipples are making the situation even harder.
I regret a lot of the decisions I've made up until this point and feel very guilty. If anyone has any suggestions as to how to get her back to the breast or if it's even possible I would really appreciate it.