i am new to this forum so i hope its ok to post a new topic.
I am here because i have a 3 1/2 week old son who i would love to exclusively breast feed.
He is my 3rd baby and 2md in 10 months.
My first baby i was only 19 when i had him and never concidered breast feeding him i just was so young and had pre conceived thoughts on breast feeding that were mostly negative. My 2nd baby was 4 1/2 years later and she was in the nursery tube fed for a while. I had to go to surgery after i had her so she was given a bottle. Due to her birth weight etc the pediatrition advised she stay on formula for a while, when i got home she latched in the bath so i looked up relactation but never really bothered as i was happy to bottle feed.
My son who was born on the 29th of may i had a really hard time accepting that he was going to be born. I did not bond worth him through my pregnancy and had an awful labour which did not help anything. I decided to breast feed him but had some minor latch issues and delayed milk supply. He was so hungry that 14 hours after his birth i gave in and gave him some formula. When i got home i kept trying to feed him and suppliment with formula but i had no lactation consultanr or midwife or anything to help me so i was left to fend for myself. I bought nipple sheilds and on day 4 he finally fed. I fed him a few times a day on the breast and he was happy there the rest of the time and night he had formula as latching took a long time and we would both get upset i was far too tired at night to sit up trying to get him to latch too. I spoke to some friends who said that my milk would dry up any way doing this so i just stopped and pumped every couple of days just to see what milk i had. On the 9th of june i had nearly 2 ounces 2 days later i had 10 mils less 4 days later i had 20 mils . Then majically the next nught in the bath he latched!! And stayed there for a good 40 mins on one breast.The next day i woke up and truly missed the bonding breast feeding gave us and it was something i really wanted to do and experience. My partner has shut the door on any more children and im now distraught as i want so bad to feed him. I bought fenugreek and started taking it and started pumping as much as i could. I cant pump all the time as i only have a manual pump and 3 children a 5 year old a 10 month old and my 3 week old. I pump 4 times a day and get him to latch several times a day as well. My nipples are killing me at this point and i dont know if i should keep going. Its only been two days but i cant seem to stay awake at night to pump i already have to wake up to two babies. I fell asleep with the pump in my hand. Pumping during the day is really painful at first because my nipples are so sore. And it hurts when he latches too just like a stinging feeling. Im only getting drops probably 5mil with both breasts combined at this point. I cant get a hospital grade pump as they are so expensive to rent in my area and we really cant afford to shell out that much money in one go. And the pills that you can buy online are also very expensive especially if they dont work. Not to mention i have no CC or anything to pay for them and i live in australia so it could be a couple of weeks before they get to me. But with all this combined im trying hard to accept that i may never breast feed one of my babies but it makes me cry. It breaks my heart. Am i a lost cause ? Does any one have any advice for me ? I also find it hard to see a lactation consultant as i dont drive and have the 2 babies 24/7 and my son is off school for 2 weeks too. Im ages away from the health clinic and they are only there once a week