I think I am still stuck in the newborn frame of thinking that we have to regularly nurse to prevent my supply from dropping. When I am with my DD in the evenings and on the weekends I clock watch to make sure she doesn't go longer than 4 hours tops w/o nursing. Sometimes when I do offer it to her at these times she takes it for a short time but is done quickly. Then I attempt to offer her the other side to even them out and she does the same. I am stuck in the mind frame that if she goes too long w/o nursing my supply will decrease. How long is too long to go w/o nursing for a 10.5 mo? In the evenings I nurse her right after work because I pump an hour before she has her last bottle. I nurse her to sleep so I prefer not to have her nurse too close to her bedtime so I nurse her as soon as she gets home. Sometimes she is not very interested. When we go places and do things on the weekend I try to time everything around when I think she will need to nurse again. I think this all is contributing to the huge amount of stress that I have been feeling trying to balance work, school, BFing, and household responsibilities. Am I being to rigid in my/our 'schedule'?
This is probably the reason my fiance thinks that we "need to get her off the BM" as soon as she turns 1. That comment sent me into a tailspin too. He is great but he doesn't understand that breastfeeding is about more than just nutrition and something to drink. I plan on pump weaning a few weeks before her birthday but want to get nursing in the evenings and weekends if she desires for awhile. I also can't imagine how I would get her to sleep at night w/o it and back to sleep when she wakes up so I refuse to completely wean her just because he doesn't understand. I just don't want this to be a problem in our relationship. I tried to explain it to him the other day and he seemed to be a little more supported but maybe he was just humoring me to avoid an arguement. He wants us to be able to send her with her grandparents on the weekends so that we can go and do things or just get things done around the house w/o having to take turns entertaining DD. Right now I don't want to send her with anyone on the weekends b/c I like being pump free on the weekends. Should I just get over that desire and send her with a bottle with her grandparents for awhile? I've mentioned my desire to constantly be with my DD on the weekends since I'm away from her a lot during the week due to work in another post. Everyone assured me that it was normal to want to constantly be with my DD but I'm still feeling the pressure.
Looks like I've got two separate issues here that I'm looking for advice and/or reassurance on ladies. I really wish I had fellow BFing friends but I am very thankful for this forum.