I wrote a short time ago about my worries of diminishing supply while pumping and my thoughts about quitting pumping since I was not getting much.
Well, I decided to stop pumping when I realized that I wasn't even getting enough milk to cover the bottom of the bottle. I have still been nursing my daughter (who will be 33 months old this month) and thought everything was fine. However, the last two days she has said to me...mommy, where's my milk?
I know that she has been a lazy nurser but I did not think that my pumping (with hardly any milk coming out) had any effect on her supply.
Now, I feel like too many crazy things have been happening. First the drop in milk supply. Then my period has been off...I have gotten it every month...it has just been late or irregular. I started to get flushed in the morning when I get out of bed..something I only had when I was pregnant and with gestational diabetes. I've had several symptoms including recently, very sore nipples when nursing, that have prompted me to take a pregnancy test that after 1 invalid test, came back negative. The only other thing I can think of is possibly diabetes since it does run in my family. I was also on Fenugreek for the first 2 years and stopped that a few months back...maybe that is causing this? I did read it is also used to stabilize blood sugar. I also have very dry hair too that started a few months ago
I also noticed that the last of my daughter's breast milk stash that I have been defrosting from the deep freezer that I pumped last seems to be loaded with fat. I mean... most of it is huge globs of fat. It is really weird. She drinks it fine...it is just weird.
So, I am not sure what is going on? Has anyone had anything similar happen?
I feel like I am losing my mind. My anxiety is very high. I actually pulled out the pump and I am pumping now to see if I get anything and again, not even enough to cover the bottom of the bottle.
My goal was to let her wean herself... now I feel like a bad mom because she is asking me where is her milk.