We are having some problems with breast feeding this week and it is really throwing my confidence off. Here is a short run down of the last 2 weeks and 5 days (Ethan is 2 weeks and 5 days old).
He was born via cesearean after my water breaking and having meconium in it. I was dilated to a 1 and he had not dropped. I labored on Pitocin for about 9 hours and then got an epidural at 6 cm dilated this was on a Sunday at 2am. The same Sunday he was born at 5:09pm. I was not able to bfeed him after the cesarean due to my uncontrollable shaking and I don't even remember holding him until the next day. He did not get to breast until 10 hours after birth and was supplemented with human donor milk. My milk came in on day 7 or 8 and he lost 13% of his birth weight (7lbs 11 oz). He also had tongue tie and we had to get a ENT to clip it on the 5th day after he was born.
We have since gained his birth weight back (on Tuesday he weighed 8lbs 4 oz) both with breast feeding and donor milk supplementation but the supplementing ended about a week and a half ago. We had been doing well on the breast or so I thought except for these last few days.
He will be on the breast and will start crying and pulling away and furrow his brows. We switch positions, I burp him and try to calm him and it just goes on and on. He works himself into a frenzy. This is happening about 2-3 bf times a day and after these episodes he still shows signs of hunger, rooting and sucking on his fists and will not go to sleep. Sometimes he'll go about 3 hours without sleeping just crying or sleeping lightly and then waking up and crying.
I had a doula come over and tell me he is still hungry and she gave him some of my milk in a bottle and I just sobbed in the bathroom while she was feeding him. Not only because I worked so hard to get that milk (90ml) and freeze it but because I feel like I can't even satisfy him.
I have been working with 2 different lactation consultants and one says he is going through a growth spurt and the other says that my letdown is fast on the left and slow on the right (right side only producing little amounts of milk 20ml after 30 minutes BF).
I have been so committed to BF to the point where I am making myself sick with worry if this does not go right but I am really starting to get discouraged.
Is anyone else having this problem? What did or do you do? I can't stand to watch him lose weight (I am going for another weigh in tomorrow because he is losing the double chin I worked so hard to give him).
I don't want to say I am ready to throw in the towel but I can't keep crying over this it has to be causing both of us significant amounts of stress.
please help me
Other facts last 48 hours:
Diapers: May 3rd (by 2:30pm)- 6 wet and 2 poop; May 2- 8 wet and 2 poop;
BF: May 3rd (by 2:30pm)- 5 feedings and total 120 ml supp due to crying and continued rooting behavior and went 3 hours without sleeping only slept after 90ml supp; May 2- 8 feedings 3 fussy and went 3.5 hours without sleeping