I have been battling breastfeeding since my son was born 3 months ago. I cannot seem to get ahead of my problems and I just don't know how much longer I fight everything. I have had mastitis 3 times and it just knocks me down so bad that I have to have my mom come and help because I'm not sure I can care for my son when I'm so sick. I believe I have thrush but my Dr disagrees, and my son's pediatrician won't treat him either because he has no signs of thrush. I have gashes on both nipples that have taken weeks to heal. I had a visible yeast overgrowth on my right nipple about a month ago, and my Dr prescribed nystatin. It seemed to help the wound heal on that side, and the yeast is gone. I haven't nursed from the right side since the onset of the yeast overgrowth, just pumping that side. This has created an over supply problem on the left side, which I am guessing causes the mastitis to occur. I also have thrush symptoms on the left side (burning after feeding, stabbing pain, red nipples) and that has made day to day life pretty miserable. I've been doing everything I've read about fighting thrush, but again, my Dr and my son's pediatrician don't believe that thrush is the problem so i don't know how to get ahead of the thrush. I know this is long winded... I just don't know what the breaking point is because I feel like I am not as good of a mother as I can be with these problems constantly dragging me down physically and emotionally. I have set a goal of breastfeeding until 6 months but I can't imagine continuing to live like this for 3 more months. At what point do the benefits of breastfeeding outweigh my sanity and physical pain?