Hi I have said variations on this topic before. But this is now coming down the pike I can see the end coming the end of breastfeeding for me and maybe my only child. I hope it wasn't a mistake I made. I was hoping to breastfeed past 3 years (she's a little over 2.5 right now). Lately she is losing her nap and sometimes rejecting my usually nap time feeding. I have actually contemplated giving her less food LOL (I know maybe extreme but......). So now I breastfeed in the morning before we get up, and at night. But I have been trying to make sure I still breastfeed her during the day like today I made sure even though she didn't map that she breastfed after coaxing her and I kept trying till she gave in I just grabbed her and put her on. Then it was the BEST. This end will be hard for me. You never see the end coming when they are young its so far off you jus live in the moment. But now she is growing independent. But I don't want to let go. I don't want her to grow up. I want her babyness extended longer and that is helped with breastfeeding.
Breastfeeding has become my sanctuary and it didn't start off like that it was a battle between me and breastfeeding, but I made it through. It took a long time for her and I to get the latch right almost 2 months of soreness, pain, breakdowns, crying, and torturing my husband. But I never gave up even when people told me to. I also live with my mother who is so dominating she tries to control everything including me and my toddler, she's always telling me what to do. So breastfeeding is the only thing that is MINE. No one can take it away from me. Its my show. Its my cherished time with my daughter to bond. I can take her someplace quiet and have her undivided attention. No prying judgmental eyes. No fighting for her attention. Plus it relaxes me
Now that it might be leaving I'm sad. People say "well the next phase will be good too" Well true but not exactly the same as breastfeeding your baby, holding them, touching them, laughing with them, its magic. Life moves so fast the time together is so fleeting there is so much on the schedule bonding is pushed to the backburner. That is why I like breastfeeding its guaranteed "quality time".
How have others on here let go and how do you make sure your still bonding with your child? How did you feel emotionally?